Confessions

Confessions
Posted on Apr 10, 2016 in Devotions
Author:  Mary Grace Vaughan
 Hectic! That seems to be the one word that describes my life right now. Recently, I was asked how I’m managing being a wife, a mother of two, work full time, go to school, and do everything else.

My initial response was “With a lot of help from…” and I was going to say my husband and my family (especially my mom). But I quickly corrected myself and said “… God” as if I was caught saying a lie. At that moment, I realized that so much of myself have gotten lost within my so-called “busy life” that God was no longer the first person I thought of. The truth is that I have been struggling with protecting my time with God. I go days and sometimes even weeks without reading His Word. When I do find myself faithful in at least reading His Word and saying my prayers, I have to admit that a few of those times I just did it because “I felt bad.” This is my first confession.

I have made several efforts in trying to get myself back on track with my quiet time. I keep reciting the famous verse in Matthew 6:33  “But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you” (NASB).  My head knew what I needed to do, but my heart failed to follow through.
 
Now this is my second confession – I have been trying to “fix” myself with my own power. The ultimate truth is that I need God in every aspect of my life especially in my walk with Him. Christ gave us His everything, and He makes His love known to us every day. How can I not have joy in my heart when I am basked in His love? His love should move me so much that I am excited and I earnestly yearn to spend time with Him.

I am a work in progress, and I am so thankful that despite my failures, God has not and will not ever give up on me.